Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Grump Days


This summer I have worked really hard on working through and avoiding what I call "grump days." These are days when my depression gets the better of me and I have trouble powering through. Grump Days are a part of living with mental illness. You can do your best to mitigate the damage and minimize their severity, but sooner or later Grump Days will happen and that is okay. 

Today was a grump day, I didn't think it would be. I got outta bed at 7 at breakfast, listened to a conference talk, and posted my feelings in my scripture group; but then my tummy acted up so I went back to bed. When Hubby came home for lunch at 11:30, I was still there. Yep grump day. I got up he fixed me some food and handed me the remote so I could turn on some of my favorite stand up comedy. Today it was YouTube clips of Bill Engvall. I ate my food, took my meds, and watched some truly funny stuff. Everyone should have go to funny stuff for grump days. Laughter is scientifically proven to help alleviate many symptoms of depression. 

At some point, I managed to get dressed, pull back my hair and get some administrative house stuff done. By the time Hubby got home from work I felt like going for a walk, so we did. This time I made it all the way around the block without needing to stop for a rest. At the end I was able to call it an okay day.

Now the funny part. I sat down intending to write a post about how I got nothing done today because it was a bad day and that sometimes bad days happen and that's okay, but as I sat thinking over my day I realized that I had actually done some things and one of them was even on my to do list! So I guess that my message tonight is more along the lines of this: When Grump Days happen and you feel like you have done absolutely nothing, (which lets be honest can makes us feel even worse) Try focusing on what you DID do, rather than what you didn't. Did you get out of bed? Great! Did you put on clothing that you hadn't slept in the night before? Awesome! Did you successfully ingest enough calories to keep from passing out? Super!   

Our Grump Days may not be the most productive days but things do get done on them. The faster we remember that, the sooner we can move on to better, less grumpy days